Wednesday, August 30, 2023

THE BARD SAID IT BEST!!!

 As I live EVERY SINGLE DAY with the pain resulting from the careless, inaccurate comments of the retina specialist Dr. Deluge, I cannot help but think of Hamlet as he considered taking steps to end his own pain.  Thank you Poetry Foundation for making this available!

To be, or not to be, that is the question:
Whether 'tis nobler in the mind to suffer
The slings and arrows of outrageous fortune,
Or to take arms against a sea of troubles
And by opposing end them. To die—to sleep,
No more; and by a sleep to say we end
The heart-ache and the thousand natural shocks
That flesh is heir to: 'tis a consummation
Devoutly to be wish'd. To die, to sleep;
To sleep, perchance to dream—ay, there's the rub:
For in that sleep of death what dreams may come,
When we have shuffled off this mortal coil,
Must give us pause—there's the respect
That makes calamity of so long life.
For who would bear the whips and scorns of time,
Th'oppressor's wrong, the proud man's contumely,
The pangs of dispriz'd love, the law's delay,
The insolence of office, and the spurns
That patient merit of th'unworthy takes,
When he himself might his quietus make
With a bare bodkin? Who would fardels bear,
To grunt and sweat under a weary life,
But that the dread of something after death,
The undiscovere'd country, from whose bourn
No traveller returns, puzzles the will,
And makes us rather bear those ills we have
Than fly to others that we know not of?
Thus conscience doth make cowards of us all,
And thus the native hue of resolution
Is sicklied o'er with the pale cast of thought,
And enterprises of great pith and moment
With this regard their currents turn awry
And lose the name of action.

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Saturday, August 26, 2023

FLOOD DAMAGE

Today is Thursday, August 26, 2023. 

I'm still in pain every single day of my life because of the flood of abysmally ignorant and/or careless medical advice purveyed by a medical specialist and discussed in other parts of this blog.   

I keep hoping that time will bring relief, and that eventually I might go for a nice walk in good weather without the distraction of the flood of pain from the vertebrae which were fractured when a retina doctor -- who surely must have known better -- told me my retinal condition was because I was "on Prolia," when the correct answer would have been (as I later learned to my sorrow)  that I had osteoporosis.  

But this careless and inaccurate statement initiated a flood of events that have left me in pain and/or extreme discomfort for the past several years.  

I'm back on Prolia now,  but while this may forestall future damage, unfortunately the painful fractures that have already occurred - -vertebral fractures that cannot be set and which will never heal properly -- are still part of my daily life.  

My choices: remaining immobile which is unhealthy in general and especially unhealthy for bones, or getting up and getting around despite the pain.

Despite the flood of pain I live with each day I take the latter road as much as I can tolerate.  

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Wednesday, August 23, 2023

SO DAMNED SICK OF THE CONSTANT FLOOD OF PAIN!

I have some nice events coming up.  Our Law Ladies Lunch will be next week, for instance. But the pain never goes away.  And it puts a damper on so many events that should be enjoyable! 

Besides the pain, I am never free of the sickening memory of how I actually believed that dumb-ass Dr. Timothy Flood who told me that the eye condition he was treating was because I was "on Prolia!" 

That memory persists like a toad in the lemonade! 

OK.  So Dr. Timothy Flood was a total dumb ass!

But why was I such a dumb ass to actually believe him? 

I should have turned and run right out the door when he said he didn't want to treat me because I was a lawyer and I would sue him!  

That was the first time we met!  

I had NEVER had a doctor say that to me before!

I should have paid attention and gotten out of that stinking situation ASAP!   

I guess it never occurred to me that a medical doctor could be so unbelievably dumb - and/or uncaring!  

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Sunday, August 20, 2023

A LONG OVERDUE RETIREMENT!

Ding-Dong!  He won't be doing to others as he did to me!  

Dr. Timothy Flood -- who could not manage to get that great big word "osteoporosis" out of his mouth, has finally retired. Thank goodness.

I am writing this in September, 2023, and so many activities of daily living are still quite painful.  I have to force myself to be active despite the pain!

I only wish his retirement would give him a taste of debacle his carelessness made out of mine! 

Hopefully his careless, stupid language will not destroy anyone else! 

Ding Dong he won't be doing to others as he did to me!!!                                           



   Not a moment too soon!!
 
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Friday, August 11, 2023

WHEN I SHOULD HAVE WALKED OUT THE DOOR

 The first time I saw Dr. Timothy Flood he asked me what kind of work  I did.  I told him I was a lawyer.  His response was surprising.  He said he didn't want to treat me because I would sue him!  

No doctor had ever said anything like that to me before.  He wanted me to sign something to the effect that I wouldn't sue him, which of course I declined.  

But in retrospect, after the damage his careless words caused me, I now believe I should never have let him come near me!  Trying to reassure him that I wasn't interested in suing doctors was one of the stupidest things I ever did in my life.   Instead, I should have grabbed my coat and walked right out the door!  

I do not live a day of my life free of the pain his careless words and actions have caused me.  

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Another Little Pain-Driven Verse

There was a fxxking axxhole whose name was Timothy Flood. Who never should have been touching event they eyes of a spud! I live each day with his "gift" to me -- relenless, unceasng pain! He walks away with the money while my future goes right down the drain! ###